Something happened last night, and I know it was something profound within an altered state of consciousness. I went into a sort of trance, whereby I felt like I was being possessed. I have had similiar experiences before like this, but not as powerful as this one. I felt like I couldn’t sleep to begin with, as thought processes were abandoning ship and a pattern was brewing, an unhealthy pattern. Although I was aware of this, I felt very much like I was in a trance, rather than it being real. It felt like my mind was dominating the environment, and how I was feeling at that particurlar moment. I think that is where it started, the domination of a moment, born out of old wounds and expriences thus leading to utter control of the mind. This domination was bringing about a different reality, one which felt very much jaded, but I felt I was attracted to this type of reality there and then for it to completetly go out of me once and for all. This reality was very much based on need, something unrealistic and I guess the conscious part of it was fighting it out.
I felt like I was physically fighting something out, and although my eyes were closed I felt very much awake and within a light. The expression even though physical, as I felt something move throughout my body. I don’t think consciously I was using much of the body to fight it out. I did feel like I was suffocating, as it was envoking all around me on purpose. It was an expected experience, even though I did not know this sort of possession would take place then. I know the pattern was coming to an end, and it had to be erased sooner or later, and this domination helped to achieve that release. I think fighting out that conscious reflex bought about my kinder awareness to what has been really going on. By understanding what happened and letting go of it, I have come to realise this. This has bought about a new understanding in light, and has helped me to see my higher state of consciousness clearer, by understanding the whirlpool of perception.
Have you experienced some form of mind possession? Did you know where it originated from, within you?
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This might not compare with your experience at all but my mental state so rules my life, I thought I’d let you know. Frequently, between twice a month and twice a week, I get migraine headaches that feel as if half my head has been blown off. Not an exaggeration.
I’m a fiction writer and so cultivate unreal, but consistent characters to sound off and make themselves heard. Occasionally two of them (funny it’s never just one) will dominate my dreams or half-dreams, talking on and on, arguing with each other and me, and telling me what’s what and how life should be.
This is better if it’s going on during the day when I’m awake and silently calling to them. Having them take over my dreams is rarely pleasant.
Finally, perhaps as compensation for those migraines, I experience prolonged, weightless, radiant states of euphoria for no reason I can name. The exaltation comes on its own, not because I got a story published or found someone who knew just how to play with me.
Hello Kathleen Maher,
It is good to see you here. I apreciate you sharing your experience, and can capture a similiar feel that of mine to that of yours. Have you ever questioned the characters, through your own conscious or sub-conscious awareness?
I feel that possession is more the struggle in the conscious part of you, and that can go in various roots, depending on the route you choose to go in, or the effect you choose for it to have on you.